..manong, marikina!..

yeah, this is one of our jokes here in baguio..pag nag-aasaran, minsan kunyari walk-out tas sisigaw ng manong tas kung san gusto pumunta..tas parang magpapara ng cab..at kadalasan e kung san nakatira mga gusto nmin..harhar..just moments ago, i remembered the good days that we spent here (together with my two bestest bestfriends)..the way we laugh at our own corny jokes, and the way we pretend to get a cab and go anywhere we want...

i suddenly felt empty..

empty of what i should have.

bgla kong nafeel na gusto kong bumaba..i miss my home..i miss my sisters..i miss my parents..i miss my bestfriends.

actually, i'm not really empty..they're there..it's just that maybe i'm longing for their hug (and un ang super kelangan ko ngayon)...their presence...

if i could just go to session road, ride a cab and tell the driver..."manong, marikina..."

...i would

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ayokong umuwi.pagkat pagdating ko sa bahay ay katahimikan ang sasalubong sa akin.natatakot ako sa katahimikan dahil marami itong sinasabi.ayokong pakinggan ang sinasabi ng katahimikan.dapat ay may ginagawa akong mga ipapasa bukas.pero ayokong tumayo sa upuan upang magbayad at umalis.saan naman ako pupunta?saan ako pupulutin?wala rin namang handang salubungin ako.wala rin namang handang sunduin ako.walang handang pagbuksan ang pinto upang patuluyin ako.

saan na naman kaya ako mapapadpad nito?wala na naman kasiguraduhan.dahil bawat yapak ay walang direksyon.bawat yapak ay isang pagaalinlangan.bawat yapak ay patungo kung saan man.bawat yapak ay papunta...saan nga ba?

ayokong magisip.sa sobrang dami ng iniisip ko ay hindi ko na alam kung ano ang iisipin.maraming sinisigaw ang utak ko.kung ano rin ang isinisigaw ng puso ko.

IKAW.

..i'm just missin' you badly..

yeah.,tama nga.,tulad ng title ng blog na toh, i miss you..ewan..ewan q rin sa sarili q..i really think this is weird, the fact that i'm missin you..cguro nga para sa mga tao na close q, sanay na cla sa ganitong scenario..but as for me, i still find it weird to be attracted or be attached so fast..i'm assessing everything that has happened, and hindi ko tlga maisip kung kelan at paano..i just felt it..it lingers..your presence lingers..

kaya mejo nagbago lahat ng pananaw q sa buhay..harhar..it's really funny how a person like you change everything or all of my plans in life..i can still remember the moment that you asked me about my plans after graduation..harhar..wala lang..i just find it funny now that i suddenly didn't answer you about my real plans..bigla akong nablanko..kung napansin mo..bgla akong nagisip..coz at that very moment, i was just thinking about you and me together at that time..it's sad that the time flew so fast and we never noticed that soon, the sun will be up..i stayed awake all night with you..and that will be in my memory forever..the moments when we don't have any plan in our life (and it ended up walking along session road)..i really enjoyed your company..gusto kong kausap ang mga taong kagaya mo..hehe, and so many bloopers happened..

kaya tuloy, i'm missin' you right now...