This is what I like about Him. When i ask him to touch my heart and heal the wound, He will do so.
So after few hours of writing a hurtful entry, i feel light now. Maybe it's because He made me realize a lot of things this day...although not enough to make me a better wife. But then, the hurt is gradually fading..so i just told myself...just let it be...Thy will be done on this. and gradually, there will be no worries.,i'm still in a process so i can't say that tomorrow, everything will be alright..
No more worst case scenarios, no more doubts, just trust...then i can say when i reach that stage that i am ready to be a better wife for him..because i love him so much that i want everything to be well between us. I don't want to ruin everything just because of those stupid memories that keep on coming back every time i'm hurt.
Just love.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
still hurting
and this is one of my hardest times..it is unfair that i am being tested on my weakest..i am vulnerable.
i am weak and vulnerable. just what i used to be. and almost everything came back. now i have start from scratch again. and i feel worthless. back to square one.
the most painful is when the one who you love so much incurred the pain..i was hurt, and still hurting. i try to be ok but the all the progress i made were erased.,i don't know what else to do..it hurts so bad.,
i was almost halfway through the sojourn of overcoming the painful memories, but where am i now?.i was afraid to be hurt, but it happened again.,this time, more painful than before.,i was numbed by the pain.,i am numb.
and i feel that everything has changed. i am afraid.
i am weak and vulnerable. just what i used to be. and almost everything came back. now i have start from scratch again. and i feel worthless. back to square one.
the most painful is when the one who you love so much incurred the pain..i was hurt, and still hurting. i try to be ok but the all the progress i made were erased.,i don't know what else to do..it hurts so bad.,
i was almost halfway through the sojourn of overcoming the painful memories, but where am i now?.i was afraid to be hurt, but it happened again.,this time, more painful than before.,i was numbed by the pain.,i am numb.
and i feel that everything has changed. i am afraid.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
the "loyal" wedding
In 24 years and 1 month, I will be marrying a man who is responsible, loving, and the man of my dreams. I will be happy after the marriage...because after 24 years, I want to marry the same man I married 11 months ago. I will still be happy after the ceremony just like what i felt after our marriage ceremony.
last night, i attended a ceremony for renewal of vows, in time for the 25th wedding anniversary of our colleague in CFA.,it was the first time..
there were many realizations during the event..what will i look like after 24 years? i want to use the original veil, cord, and arrhae..how many children will we have after 24 years?.
the bottom line is , i wanna marry again the man who made my life complete...
last night, i attended a ceremony for renewal of vows, in time for the 25th wedding anniversary of our colleague in CFA.,it was the first time..
there were many realizations during the event..what will i look like after 24 years? i want to use the original veil, cord, and arrhae..how many children will we have after 24 years?.
the bottom line is , i wanna marry again the man who made my life complete...
Monday, May 2, 2011
my lakbayan grade is C!
Should I celebrate or not? I know, i have not visited much of the country's towns...Soon, i will! :)
My Lakbayan grade is C!
How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!
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