in preparation

i'm preparing myself for the possibilities that will and can happen in the future..
i'm just hoping that my preparation is enough to have me emotionally and psychologically stable.
i don't like what i'm feeling right now..i know that it is wrong. (very wrong indeed)
i hope that someday, i'll treat you just like any other person in my life..not as special as you seem right now..

i miss you..that's one thing for sure..even if i deny it many times, i know that i'm feeling that way..that i feel something special for you..whoever you are,.i hope i can say it to you..but i don't have the guts to do that. i don't want to ruin the friendship that we've built..i don't want to ruin everything..

for now, i'm preparing myself...