..my second entry today..

technically, it's really not 'today' coz it's already past 12midnight..just for this stressful day because i'm still awake..

anyway,,just pissed off with everything that happened to me..they are really downfalls for me.,well, not really everything.,

the reason??.well, i just think this is not my day.,yeah..it's really not my day..first, got unlucky with LTO.,then, my one ptc account got screwed up..,and then, i got demoted-slash-on probation in one of my freelancing jobs..see..what else?????.i'm totaly screwed up.,

maybe i just need some sleep..and i hope i can sleep though
tomorrow, i mean later, hope everything will be fine..i hope there'll be good news for me..
i suddenly lost my interest in what i'm doing right now..really..

i suddenly felt tired.

..just don't want to add a title..

it is same as saying this post is untitled. I don't want to give a title to this blog entry because i just feel like not placing any. Honestly, i don't know what i'm going to say in this entry. i just want to write something (and that's not for the sake of writing and earning something). I want to unwind from the stressful day that i had. Stressful because i have a deadline to beat. (nearly 3 hours to go and my time is up). Still, i haven't finished my assignment up to now. One article is such a long one for me right at this moment. It's because my mind is clouded with so many things. Things comin' in and goin out. They just don't settle (i mean my thoughts). They're flying everywhere. If only i could see my brain, i could see smog in it. lots of smog. maybe you're asking why i thought of smog, right?. actually, i don't know too. i just thought that smog is a combination of good and bad. and that's exactly what's happening inside my head. if i could just order my thoughts to stop bothering me so i could finish my work. but i can't. they just won't listen. i just won't listen. (and now i'm talking to myself..freak right)..well, this is the beauty of writing a blog entry. you can talk stupidly to yourself. just like what i'm doin right now.

minutes are passing. seconds. microseconds.

i'm hanging.

i'm hung.

i'm...

...totally confused.

and that's what i am now. confused. confused of what to think. confused of what to believe. i barely can't breathe. smog's into my chest now (finally leaving my null mind)

...and now the smog's starting to numb me. it's starting to make my chest null too.

i dunno..i just dunno.

..a happy day..

planning your future is an exciting thing in your life. But what makes it more exciting is when you do it with the one you really love. I did that today.

This completed my day. We went to church for the usual Sunday mass and headed towards my subdivision. We sat on an empty lot and spread a newspaper to protect our clothes. We looked at the metro (since our subdivision is located on a hill) and started to imagine...and plan.

It's a wonderful experience for me, especially that I did this with my special someone.
Honestly, this was the first time... :)

..am i selfish??..

yeah, that's my question now..alam q,ndi nmn tlaga kmi eh..pero parang ganun..magulo at malabo..one thing's for sure,we love each other..and dahil dun, parang ipinagdadamot q sha ngyon..cguro dala na lng din nung nangyari..ewan q ba..naffeel q tuloy na ang selfish q...alam q nmang mali eh...alam na alam q un..unang una, wala aqng karapatan..at pangalawa,kht nmn kmi e hindi pa rin tama un...ewan q ba..bkt ganito ang nangyayari sakn ngyon...haist..

mahal na mahal ko talaga sha..wala nmang duda dun eh..pro ndi q rin maintindihan ung sarili q ngyon...sana hindi na matapos kung anuman ang meron smin ngyon...kelangan lang nmin aucn lht ng kelangang aucn..at sana nga maayos pa sha...sana..pero extra effort para sa min..haist...

..you broke my heart..

unexpectedly, you broke my heart.

..funny thing i learned today..

funny how the things you hate before will become the things you’ll thank in the future..i was reading my testimonials this morning.me isa don na nagsabi na i should look at the bright side of what happened in my 2nd sem last school year. i failed one of my majors and i can’t graduate the coming summer term. i so hate my prof at that time. she was also my thesis adviser and that time, me and my thesis partner were having a hard time finishing our thesis. and so i re-enrolled my major subject. the funny thing there is that having to extend my studies made me meet the one i love now. and the more funny thing is that i met him while looking for a topic for my case study required in that subject..hehe..it’s so funny noh..fate really plays the way you don’t expect. and now i can say that things happen for a reason. that is why i can say that it’s so funny that the things you hate before will be the things you’ll thank in the future…i’m thankful for that subject..there was a sudden twist in my life… a funny little twist…

bakit nga ba ako naiirita??

bakit nga ba??.dahil ba hindi sha nagttxt?.e bakit ba kse ako nageexpect??.cguro dahil me bearing skn ang nangyari?.ewan q ba.,naaasar aq..kung may paguusap man, cguro nga kelangan ko un..or wala lang sha kaya hindi kelangan magusap?.gusto ko magusap kse gusto ko iclear sa knya lahat..i mean, hindi ko kse nagawa un..hai..asar!