maybe it's time for me to open my eyes

from celine's multiply account..thanks celine..

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cellphone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn't want to be anything at all. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change...

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.

We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us.. again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if...".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us.

When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her... he didn't mean it.=(

This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with...

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, I'm just not ready." or maybe, "You're just not the one for me." (Then maybe later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."
The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time.. that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted to be loved like that...

Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.

Here's for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart ... again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong.

.. and remember that relationships are like broken glass.Sometimes, it's better to leave it broken rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.
Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When your song comes on the radio, turn the station off.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was...

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to..

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.
It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is,
it will heal...

pinkishly pink

oh well, bkt ba pag pink e ikaw ang naiisip or naaassociate ko?.haha..weird noh.,o well.,cguro kse natutuwa aq sayo lalo na kung nakapink ka..bigla kong naappreciate ang lalaking nakapink dahil sayo..cguro kse nagulat lng aq nung unang beses na nakita kitang magsuot ng damit na pink.,minsan lng kse mangyari un at sobrang tuwang tuwa aq sayo..swear.,parang kanina, nakapink ka ulit.,hehe..

kht na wala tayong mashadong time na magkasama, kanina halos huminto ang mundo ko nung nagktinginan tayo..minsan lng din mangyari un..ewan ko ba, cguro dahil may something sa mga mata mo (muta??.haha.,joke lng)..basta may something sa mata mo eh..ndi ko maexplain..cguro kse me nakikita aqng mystery sa mga mata mo..ndi kse nagsasabi ng totoo, or iba ang ipinapakita nila..ndi ko tuloy alam kung ano ba tlga nararamdaman mo or kmusta ka na..kse ndi nmn tayo naguusap, ni magtxt ndi natin magawa..nahihiya kse ako sayo, as in super nahihiya aq sayo..kaya pag may mga piling moments na nagkakaron tayo ng interaction, sobrang tntreasure ko sha...haha..

mahal nga ba kita?.muka naman..ang sayang tingnan ka lalo na pag mukang malalim iniisip mo..malamang ndi mo alam un kse ndi ka nmn skn tumitingin kaya ndi mo ko nahuhuli..haha..pero lagi kaya kitang tinitingnan..lalo na kanina..para ngang high school eh..haha..me kilig factor pa kanina.,weh..hehe..ang weird noh..pero ganon tlga nararamdaman ko eh..ganon ang nararamdaman ko para sayo..mahal nga siguro kita..kht alam kong hindi mo kayang suklian..matagal ko ng tinanggap un...

basta ikaw ang pinkishly pink ng buhay ko..

reason vs emotion

reason vs emotion...this is the dilemma that most of the teens face...what will they follow?is it the mind that tells no or is it the heart that tells why should you be bothered?.this is really a difficult thing to answer..but we have to face it..sooner or later, we have to make a decision..it is not all the time that we will be in this situation..but when we experience this, the decision that we will make will hurt us in one way or another.

all good things

All Good Things by Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

it's so sad things like this could happen...i love you, you love me, but then again we can't be together..sooner or later, we have to make another choice that could really change our lives..whatever that decision will be, let me tell you that i love you not because you're like someone else but i love you because you're you.i love you the way you are, the simple you, the real you.for now,i don't want to go though people will tell me that i'm stupid for making a decision like that. i can't go, not now...i don't want to go..you're the reason for my smiles even though you're also the reason for my cries.but everything's ok,everything will be alright..with you by my side..with you partially mine..with just you..i love you, now i'm sure.even though it's complicated.i know everything's complicated.whatever our decision will be,i know that it'll be the best for the two of us...i love you bie

a bum's life..

nov 30, 2007...walang pasok dhil holiday.,i slept almost all day...woke up at around 4pm when the person i was with the whole night woke me up to say that he's leaving...after non, nagcomputer na q.,net to the max..without actually eating any real meal..buti nagsurvive ako..haha.,i just ate eggnogs and drank mountain dew.,very healthy huh?.hehe..after that i ate nacho..puro chichirya..wala tlgang real food.,and now, it's already almost 11pm and i haven't eaten any heavy meal yet..tinatamad aqng lumabas ng bahay para kumain or bumili ng food..it's cold outside kaya mas gusto ko nalng na nsa ilalim aq ng quilt.,hehe.,

today, i was with the person i love almost the whole day..just being next to him is the greatest thing that can happen to me at this point of my life..do i love him?.ewan ko lng..basta what i feel is something special..i can't say na ngyon ko lng naramdaman toh..no it's not..i felt this feeling many times..i cried, i laughed, i loved..this time, it's the same feeling..i cried once, i laugh because of him, and i love him..his childish acts make me like him more..para tlga shang bata..hehe..without so much effort, he can make me smile..pero without his notice, napapaiyak nia rin aq..well, it's our fault..malabo kse eh..kya minsan pag nahihirapan na ko, i just cry..pero minsan ayokong icpin..ayoko muna magplano ng gagawin..ayokong lumayo at the same time ayokong mashadong lumapit..i know mali, pero kelangan ko tlga ng batok eh.,ewan ko ba..ndi ko rin maintindihan sarili ko..i want to hug him,khit payat sha..hehe.,i want to be with him..pero may constraints kse..kya hindi pwd..basta complicated..pero wala nmn akong magawa eh..ayokong gumawa ng move muna..matagal ko na kcng sinabi na lalayo aq.,kso lng ndi ko magawa..hai...

tanga ba ko??

hai.,ewan ko ba...eto na nmn ako, walang direksyon ang iniisip at pinapasok.,,tanga ba ko?.ndi, nagmamahal lng.,pero tanga pa rin, aminado ko.,ndi ko na rin kse alam kung ano ba tlga ang gagawin ko.,mashadong magulo.,,khit na para smin ay clear nmn.,clear nga ba?.oo mahal nmin ang isa't isa,pero dahil dito komplikado tuloy ang mundo nming 2.,pero mahal nga ba nia ko?.base sa sinabi niang scenario kagabi,oo,cguro...ewan,hindi ko tlga alam kung ano ung gagawin ko.,pero khit na magulo,masaya parin..khit na me iba akong iniisip,cge lng muna.,ayoko munang isipin ang problema,gusto ko lng isipin ung kming dalawa...parehas kming bata..sha,bata tlga,ako isip bata.,haha..ganun tlga.,bkt kse ndi pwdng kmi na lng?.gusto ko ung sabihin sa knya kagabi, "sana tayo na lng"..

hands down

ikaw lang ang nakatugtog nito sakin...and it hurts to remember those nights when you were partially mine..